In this life, his name was Charles Cale Lehman. He is the author of The Book of Andrew, which I am publishing through my Round House Press on February 6, 2014.
His story, perfectly timed to save lives and expand today's consciousness, reveals a world of miracles, but only to the open-minded.
Thirty-five years ago I was studying A Course in Miracles on the Upper West Side of Manhattan with Bruce Gregory, who also did hypnotic regressions for people who wanted to access their past lives.
One night after class Bruce took me aside to tell me about a marketing executive who had come to him for a regression after a series of compelling synchronistic events left him baffled.
The man's name was Charles, and he was skeptical about the whole thing. Only after finding himself regressed to a medieval life where he mourned the loss of his beautiful young wife was Charles convinced of the authenticity of the hypnotic process. He had considered himself strictly a gay American, had never experienced such love for a woman in his present life, and couldn't imagine it, though the tears brought forth for his young wife's loss were running down his face.
One of the mysteries Charles was trying to solve with the regression was the fact that he was told he had insisted on Andrew as his real name as a young child. He had also been obsessed throughout his life with the idea that there was something he was supposed to accomplish before he died. And then there was the inexplicable vision Course in Miracles scholar Ken Wapnick reported upon meeting Charles: the name "Andrew" written across Charles's forehead. Then, too, there was the reading he received from a famous and highly respected London psychic: "You knew Jesus."
BRUCE GREGORY TELLS THE STORY
“Guided to another life, Charles saw himself as Andrew, alongside the Apostle Philip, both devastated at the distant sight of Jesus crucified, and clearly in love with each other. I guided him forward, and he described being with the remaining disciples
after Jesus’s final departure, all feeling deeply inadequate at now being responsible for carrying out Jesus’s ministry.
“Charles found this experience powerful but very uncomfortable. He came back in a month to try again, but his skepticism got in the way. He left my house and soon after lifted
a heartfelt prayer, ‘If it is to be, let it be.’
“That night, and for a good number of nights to come, he was awakened at about four a.m. with a flood of images
and words coming through, all concerning the lives of Jesus, Andrew, Philip, and the other apostles.
“The first week produced fifty pages of notes. By the end of 1980, most of the transmissions had been received, and by 1989 The Book of Andrew was complete.
“Before he died in 1999, Charles Lehman asked me to take over the book’s publishing. I am so grateful to now be able to say 'It is done.'"
Patricia G. Horan
Note: This is a temporary waystation for TheBookOfAndrew.com while the book's dedicated site is under construction.
The Book of Andrew: A Past-Life Memoir, Witness of a Gay Apostle is by Charles Cale Lehman, Bruce Gregory, Editor. Published by The Round House Press, February 6, 2014. Available on Amazon.com, BarnesandNoble.com and through TheRoundHousePress.com.
The Heart of Jesus’s Teachings in The Book of Andrew
1. All love is holy in the eyes of God, Andrew, whether it be the love of a man for a woman, a mother for her child, a man for another man, or a woman for another woman. You are as God created you. (p.28)
2. I tell you this day, Andrew, that you must be born again. You will live many lives, until you have learned all the lessons you must master. You will live both as man and woman. In some lives you will love only women; in other lives, only men; and in still others, both women and men. This is true for all mortals.... (p.28)
3. In truth, those we call mortals are immortal, from everlasting to everlasting. The body in which you dwell today is but the merest shadow of your eternal soul. Seeing that in different lives the same soul may love a man or a woman, what can it matter in the eyes of God whether you love a man or woman in this life, if only you love in God’s name? (p.29)
4. I bring you glad tidings of a new covenant. This is a true saying, yet it is false. No one except yourself can bring you news of the covenant. You already hold in your heart all that it says. You knew it to the letter when you dwelled in the Lord’s own house. I only call it to your thoughts once more. The unreal babble of the world so fills your ears and mind that you cannot hear the voice of God within your heart. (p.32)
5. Whence comes the voice of God? Neither from rocks of the mountain top nor from a burning bush nor from the thunder. Its dwelling place is in the soul of man. Was not Moses a man, very like yourself? Am I not a man also, created by God and born of woman, even as you? The Law of God has not been given to one man or one nation but to each man and woman and to all nations. You are chosen. (p.32)
6. For now I tell you only this: think on the one word ‘love’, not earthly love that sets you apart and enslaves you, but love that makes us one in perfect freedom, the love of God, in all, of all, for all. I shall teach you so to love and so to live your life that men will mock you and persecute you. And the greater your love, the greater will be the rage of those with little understanding, seeing that you in turn will neither curse your persecutors nor disown your God. They will suppose you bolder than the lion, though what you have, in truth, is love not courage. Where there is naught to fear, who should have need of courage? (pp.32-33)
7. I tell you (Andrew) that your love for Philip and Philip’s for you is holy, so long as you love in God’s name. (p.41)
8. As we approached him, he turned to us and said, “I have been waiting for you and know what you seek. If you were born of the Spirit, you would not ask this thing of me. Yet you are men, and it is meet that you should show your love for one another with your bodies as well as with your hearts and minds. Therefore, love one another joyfully, knowing that your mutual love for the God Who created us all will forge stronger ties between you two than any bond of flesh.
“As God has given you to one another, you have no need of any man’s blessing, yet I will bless you. Give me your hands.” Then he placed my left hand in Philip’s right and clasped both his own hands about ours.
“You, Andrew, and you, Philip, shall love and cherish one another so long as you live, and even in death you shall never be parted.” (p.42)
9. (Simon,)...this is why your spirit is troubled. It is because of your concern for the opinions of men. But should you not be even more concerned for the opinions of God? Like you I am an outcast to my neighbors and kinsmen. I am not welcome in Nazareth, for I have abandoned the trade of my earthly father and I have never taken a wife. Still, I do our Heavenly Father’s will that I may be welcome in His house. (p.47)
10. Then Jesus said, “You are too much deceived by the appearances of the world created by men, where truth is not to be found. Can you not see that those who think themselves the rulers of the Earth are even more enslaved than those they subjugate? It is a far worse thing to work injustice than to suffer it.
“I come to free men’s Spirits, not their bodies, by showing them the truth of God. He who has a free Spirit can never be enslaved, though he be shackled and cast into the darkest prison. On the other hand, he who has never learned the truth of God cannot be free in Spirit, even if all the world should call him ‘Emperor’...only that man who has learned the truth of God is free in Spirit, and he who knows the truth of God can never slay anyone, under any conditions. Rather, he conquers his enemies with love, making them one with himself.” (p.48)
11. “There are many,” Jesus said, “who call themselves worshipers of the one true God but do not know that in truth they worship false idols. For the names of these gods are neither Baal nor Astarte, but vanity, ambition, worldly goods and power.” (p.49)
12. Why do I say to you that it is easier for a rope to pass through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter into the Kingdom of Heaven? This is because the riches of the Kingdom – the fruits of the earth, the fish of the sea and the fowls of the air – belong to no one and to everyone. These are meant for all God’s children.
There are enough of these riches for all, yet this is not the way of the world. Through their own trickery or the greed of their ancestors, a few have much more than they need while their brothers go naked and starve. Seeing that this is so, how can these few keep God’s commandment to love their neighbors as themselves? I tell you that it is far better to go naked but to have a soul that is clothed in righteousness. ...in their hearts (the rich) know that they do not own the one possession worth the having. Their souls are like worm-eaten wood, for they have broken the highest Law of all.
In spite of this, I say to you that you should love the rich, who are your brothers and sisters. Though they would blind themselves, help them to open their eyes. Show them that the worldly goods they call most precious are like so many millstones hung about the soul unless their riches are shared with those who have nothing. (pp.49-50)
13. The Kingdom of God is everywhere at all times. The very ground we stand on now is part and parcel of God’s Kingdom, as are the deserts, mountains, lakes and seas. You will enter the Kingdom of Heaven as soon as you open your eyes, seeking not to turn the things which are God’s to your own profit but sharing these with all your brothers and sisters. (p.50)
14. In truth, a man’s senses are not five but twice five. As a man’s visible body has an invisible soul, so does each of the worldly senses have its counterpart in Spirit.
There are those who see, yet they are blind, as there are those who hear, yet they are deaf. By heeding too much the judgments of this world, they have robbed themselves of that second sight and second hearing which are God’s gifts to everyone, even to those who are blind or deaf in the understanding of this world. ...if you put the teachings of the world behind you, always seeing with the eyes of Spirit, you will understand that even the serpent and scorpion are beautiful, as are those unfortunate men and women whom the worldly cast from their sight, calling them loathsome.
If you listen in the way of the world, you may hear a man cry out to you, ‘Liar!’ or ‘Fool!’ But if you listen with the Spirit, you will know this as the cry of one who dwells in darkness: ‘Help me! I cannot hear God’s voice nor see His face, wherefore I fear.’ ...God speaks to men and women even today, giving aid and comfort to His children who love Him. Yet only those who listen with the ear of the Spirit shall hear His voice. (p.51)
15. Let us proclaim the one God, the God of His chosen people the Jews, Who is also the God of His chosen people the Egyptians, Greeks, Phoenicians and Romans. ...If you suppose that there are many tribes, it is only because you see others with worldly eyes and hear them with worldly ears. You make much of differences in their speech, the color of their skins, or the set of their cheekbones, but the many tribes you see are creatures of illusion, phantoms of your mind.
In truth, as there is only one God, so there is only one tribe. As we are all sons of Adam and daughters of Eve, we are all brothers and sisters. Who, then, is your enemy?
And if we are all of one tribe, so we have but one God, though men call Him by different names and worship Him in diverse ways, according to their understanding. Let all the people of the Earth raise songs of thanksgiving to the one God Who dwells in all our hearts. (pp.51-52)
16. If we grant that we own nothing, save our love for God and our neighbor, then we have all. Love is the one eternal treasure, the treasure no enemy can seize, the fortress that is proof against all attack, the one jewel beyond price that no man may take from us, for we give it freely to all. (p.52)
17. ...sin lies not so much in those things which we do, as in what we fail to do. Remember that I have given you two commandments which stand above all others: That you should love God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind, and that you should love your neighbor as yourself. Anyone who keeps these two commandments cannot sin. ...If your father and mother should say to you, "Slay your enemies! Wreak vengeance on those who do evil to you, taking an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth," then I say, "Dishonor your father and mother, for you have no enemies, only brothers and sisters." (p.52)
18. Surely you understand that you are to love God with all your heart and with all your soul. Many will suppose that is enough. Yet I have also told you that you should love God with all your mind. What do I mean by that?
The purpose of the mind is always to search for the truth beyond appearances, with each using his mind according to the gifts that God has given him. ...Ever there is truth beyond truth, for you cannot know the whole truth so long as you are trapped in the illusions of this world. ...Some hold that, because an ancient prophet has inscribed words on a scroll, those words must need be true. Yet I tell you that even those writings called sacred, being set down by men, mix truth with error. Do not learn these words by rote, but turn them over in your mind, according to the understanding God has given you, asking yourself whether these writings are truly of the Spirit, or whether they serve the worldly ends of those who seek dominion over others. ...Heart and soul and mind must each receive its just and equal due. (p.53)
19. I have given you the only prayer you shall ever need, but you are also free to create your own prayers, and to make of your life a prayer without words, by serving God with your whole being. You may begin by praying thus:
“Our Father in Heaven, I love You, I praise You, I give thanks to You for the blessing of eternal life. Show me that sin is illusion, that only Your joy is real, seeing that I am forgiven as I forgive. Lead me not into temptation but deliver me from my own hardness of heart.
“Let all my brothers and sisters share the daily bread which You have given. Help me to love all of Your other children as I love myself, that together we may enter Your Kingdom, for this is Your will. Amen."
You have no need to pray for other worldly things. (p.54)
20. "If you see that the child’s doings are indeed evil, what should you do?”
“I should point out his error and show him the right thing to do.”
“That in itself would be an error,” said Jesus, “for all you should do is love him all the more. The child who knows perfect love can do no wrong. It is only the want of love that leads children into error.”
Then Labbaeus scratched his head and asked, “But if a child does wrong and goes on to do more wrong, who will correct the error?”
“God will correct it in time,” Jesus answered, “through the love we show which comes from God. Our love is all that can open the ears of others to the voice of the Holy Spirit within their own bosoms.
“This is the hardest lesson of love. ...When I say to you that sin is illusion, I do not mean your own sins only." (pp.54-55)
21. “You say that you love God, Andrew. Why do you love Him? Is it because the Scriptures tell us that we must?”
“I have always tried to obey the Law,” I answered, “but I love God still more because He has given us the world.... Wherever we turn, God’s world delights our eyes.... Moreover, God has given us a never-ending feast for all our other senses as well..." Then Jesus said, “You speak of a world which you yourself have created. ...your eyes have never pierced the veil of illusion. You are blind to the true nature of God’s creation. ...you must find another reason. ...If I should tell you, my answer would be mere words to you. The true answer to the question you have asked lies beyond words and even beyond the earthly senses.”... “Where am I to find it?”
“Search your own heart and call upon the Lord.” (pp.55-56)
22. If I am unlike other men, it is not that God has chosen me, but that I have chosen God. Having learned all the lessons of Heaven, I choose to do our Father’s will rather than my own. In this way I have gained perfect freedom over the madness and death of the world of men.
Men say that I work miracles. These miracles are but the power of God made visible through me. He is the Master, I am but the tool.
Through love and the power of God I have given sight to those whom the world calls blind. This is as nothing. It is a much harder thing to heal the blindness of those who see and believe the illusions of the world of men but not the truth of the Spirit, for understanding comes only from within. The eyes of the Spirit are opened only when you have said, “Henceforth I do the will of God rather than my own.” (p.56)
23. In truth, I am the son of God, as you will also be when you have claimed your birthright. If I am unlike you, it is only insofar as one blade of wheat stands higher than another, or as one lamp burns steadfastly while another flickers. You are Andrew’s elder brother of the flesh. I am your elder brother of the Spirit. (p.56)
24. When I say to all of you that your souls are eternal, I speak not only of Paradise and the life hereafter, but also of other lives which are long forgotten. Before Simon was, Simon was. Before Andrew was, Andrew was. Yet these brothers in blood shall be enslaved to the world until they become brothers in Spirit, to one another and to every other child of God, by attending closely to the lessons of Heaven and by freely choosing to do the will of Him Who is the Father of us all. (p.56)
25. I call on each of you today to choose joy over misery, freedom over slavery, life over death, and to become the son of God you truly are. (p.57)
26. ...why do we call God our Heavenly Father? Why should we not say, our Heavenly Mother? ...Man cannot create God. Nevertheless, our forefathers shaped a false vision of God arising from earthly pride, for they would see themselves as gods of this world, with dominion over the fowls of the air, the beasts of the field, and the fish of the sea. ...Men are the gods of the Earth only through cunning and brute strength. The living God, the Father and Mother of us all, rules not through force but with all-embracing love. ...God, the eternal Spirit that gives us breath and being, is both man and woman and neither man nor woman. If we are to feel within ourselves even the smallest part of God’s glory, we must go beyond all earthly ideas and even beyond words. (p.57)
27. ...the Law of God is written not only on tablets of stone and in the Torah, but in your own hearts as well, and that which is written in your hearts has greater authority than cold words or dusty covenants. Therefore, be not troubled if the Law which the Holy Spirit has graven within your bosom contradicts the Torah, so long as you follow my commandment to love both God and your fellow man.
It may be that your separate Law, given you by God, is not within the understanding of other men. Therefore, do not trouble their minds or burden their spirits with this seeming paradox, but rest assured that you are in truth a child of God and freely live by your own Law. ...it is good to follow the Scriptures, but if you study them too closely, you may find in them what is, in truth, not there. ...spend more time in listening to the voice of the Holy Spirit within your bosom and looking upon the message written on your own heart, and less in the study of books and the words of learned men who strain at gnats but cannot see the glory of the heavens. (pp.57-58)
28. ... he who would find salvation must first find joy. You should seek this joy in the worship of God, in doing good for others, and in those simple things which God has given you for this earthly life. Do not seek joy in worldly goods, for these are as spoiled fruit or sour wine. But no man can fathom the mystery or splendor of the simple things which God has given. ...be like little children, free of worldly ambition, pride, sin, and the burden of judging others, so that you may feel the endless joy of being a child of God. ...no suffering which men may inflict upon you can withstand the power of God’s joy, whether they mock you or scourge you or strip you naked and nail you to a cross. (p.58)
29. I shall unwind the meaning of parables for you....Remember first that in my parables I am always speaking of the Spirit and things of the Spirit. Remember also that things of the Spirit are to things of the world of men as day is to night, so that those things which appear to be contradictions may be reconciled, while those which appear to be the same thing may be very different. (p.59)
30. In the parable of the talents, the master of whom I speak is God Himself, and the servants are not two but legion, since they stand for all the peoples of this Earth. Yet through their actions they are but two kinds of men, the wise and unwise servants. ...At the time of each man’s and each woman’s birth, God bestows special gifts... Being gifts of the Spirit, these golden talents are not like worldly gifts, for they can be husbanded and increased only by lending them to others, for the glory of God’s name and in the service of your fellow man. (p.59)
31. ...Jesus spoke further of his story of the prodigal son:
“If a son should be away from his birthplace many years, would a father say, ‘You may come home only if you take the straightest road?’...“If God, our Heavenly Father, wants His children with Him, why should He not accomplish this at once, being all-powerful and knowing all? But God is loath to bring His children home in chains, like Roman captives. Rather He waits with loving patience till His children find their way to their Father, out of the fullness of their hearts and love for Him.
“If a child be slow to learn, would a loving father kill him or cast him into darkness? No. Rather the father would cherish him all the more, repeating each lesson many times, till understanding dawns like a rising sun in mind and heart and soul.” (pp.59-60)
32. No one may master the lessons of Heaven in a single life, but God, a loving Father, does not decree for His children the fire of eternal damnation. Rather, He repeats His lessons with patience beyond the understanding of men, giving His children all the time they need to learn. This is why I say to you, you must be born again.
Time after time you will be born of the flesh, but when, after many lives, you have learned the lessons of Heaven, you will be born of the Spirit. From that time on, eternal Paradise is yours. (p.60)
33. ...Jesus also spoke to us of healing:
“Kings and tyrants may wreak suffering and death upon you, but this is as nothing against the suffering which you inflict upon yourselves, which men call sickness or possession by devils. ...I shall teach you how to heal the sick and cast out devils, but in truth these cures come to pass only through the will of God, when sufferers yield themselves up to His will and His love. For indeed, it is the sufferers themselves who bring the illness to their bodies. ...We shall cause those who feel themselves outside the Law to look upon the face of God, for one who has seen the face of God cannot be sick in body or in mind. ...We shall touch lepers and others whom men call untouchable, summoning forth the power of God which is in every man and woman, and making them whole. We shall make sickness health, sorrow joy, and darkness light.” (p.60)
34. Before two Sabbaths have passed I shall be put to death.... I do not will it, nor does God. Nevertheless, I shall not prevent it, for man can be saved only through his own actions and by his own increase in understanding. Though I shall be put to death, I will not die. On the third day I shall rise from the dead, but I will not stay with you for long thereafter. I must return to our Father. (p.67)
35. “First, Andrew, I charge you to remember everything that has passed between us, for false doctrines will be spread in my name, and seeds of judgment, hate and death will be sown by those who call themselves my followers. Also, I have told you things which are not to be given to the world at this time. Yet, when the time is ripe, you will open your heart and bear witness, setting down my true sayings that proclaim God’s love for all His children.”
“How can that be, Lord,” I asked, “seeing that I cannot write?”
“I do not speak of this life, but of another long hence, when you will once again be a lover of men.” (pp.67-68)
36. The second thing I would speak of is this: Remember that while God’s Law is eternal and unchanging, man sees the Law only dimly, from afar, through the mists of this world of illusion. ...For this is the rule: the greater man’s understanding, the simpler the Law. “That is why I have come into the world at this time. Before I came, there were ten commandments and many proscriptions. I have given you two commandments which replace all these: That you should love the Lord thy God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind, and that you should love your neighbor as yourself. If only you keep these two commandments, you cannot sin. (p.68)
37. “Do not suppose that I have chosen you twelve because you are the holiest among all living men. Rather, you stand for all men in all stages of spiritual understanding, from John, the most enlightened, to Judas Iscariot, the most misguided.” ...Then I asked, “Where stands my brother Simon, Lord?”
Jesus frowned, and my heart sank when he answered: “It is mainly through your brother Simon and another (Paul) who is not among the twelve that my teachings will be perverted and false doctrine spread throughout the world. Future generations will make more of my death than of my life, more of my sorrows than of my joy.
“Simon will not reap the harvest, but he will sow the seed, not knowing where those things he does with good intent will lead. And people yet unborn will take Simon’s greatest weakness to be his greatest strength.
“When I shall have left you a second time, Simon will take for himself the office of head priest, for he is not content to be only a fisher of men but would be a prince of this world. As I have said that the last shall be first, so must it follow that the first shall be last.
“In spite of this, you must still love your brother Simon, as I do. What he does, he does only through lack of understanding and not from want of love for me.” (pp.68-69)
38. There are those who will becloud the minds of their brothers and sisters with incense, graven images and empty words that fall like tinkling brass upon the ear. I am a man, even as you, but they will say that I am very God and that I came into this world as a sacrificial lamb. Indeed, God is within me, and I am truly the son of God, as you are also, yet the Lord our God Who created us all stands alone in majesty. There is none beside Him. (p.69)
39. The one true church which is eternal lives, but do not look for it in houses raised by men who serve the ends of future Caesars in my name. As I have said the whole world and all the heavens are God’s church, can you suppose that man can shut it in with walls? (p.69)
40. Of all the followers of Jesus, Judas was the only one whom Jesus had not called to himself. When Judas came to the encampment at Cana to ask whether he might join the other disciples, Jesus said only, “Yes. I have been awaiting you.” (p.71)
41. When next we were able to speak to Jesus alone, I said, “Master, I fear that Judas Iscariot is no child of God but a spy working for the high priest or the Romans.”
“You are both correct and mistaken. Judas is an agent of the high priest. Indeed, when the time comes he will deliver me into the hands of the Romans, that I might be put to death. Yet Judas is also a child of God.”
“This cannot be,” I cried, “that a child of God should betray the very son of God! If he does this ungodly thing, I shall avenge you!”
“No vengeance will be taken, but the wrong will be righted.”
“Who will right it?” I asked.
“Judas himself, though this will take many lifetimes. Whatever Judas does, you must not hate him, lest one error become two, for this is the way of the world. Remember what I have told you: that no one may harm the son of God, whose soul is beyond harm. I command you to love Judas, for no man has more need of love.” (p.72)
42. Suddenly a light appeared before us.... As the light faded, Jesus stood before us. “...it must be that what you come to tell us is a thing of great importance.”...“I have come to remind you that there is much to do and little time. Along the path you have been following, shortly beyond this place, is a fork in the road. When you reach it, Philip shall take the path to the right, and you, the path to the left.”
“No!” I cried. “How can you ask this thing of us?”...“Though I have told you that your love for Philip, and Philip’s love for you, is holy, you must not lose your souls in the love of the body. For many men and women, the love of the body is the highest rapture that they know on earth. Yet the love of the body is but the merest shadow of the true love of the Spirit, one thousandth of a thousandth part, as the light of a single lamp is to the sun. You yourself have caught some glimmer of that truth on this, your first mission.... The choice is yours alone to make, Andrew, but Philip counsels you wisely. Though the final lesson is always the hardest, do not protest. This is the lesson for which you have lived this life.” (pp.87-88)
43. And though I died in pain and humiliation, stripped naked and nailed to a cross head down, I died in joy. For my holy Master and Philip were there beside me all the while, and in my heart, saying, “Beloved Andrew, you shall be with us in Paradise today!” (p.93)
44. “What wonders of creation children are! Lacking the heavy words that weigh down the spirit, the tearful memories of yesterday or the fears of tomorrow, they live in the eternal Kingdom of God – until we have taught them not to do so.
“If you too would know the Kingdom of God, my dear followers and friends, become like this child. Forget all else, that you might recall the infinite goodness of Him Who is the Father of us all.” (p.120)
45. "...there shall come a time long hence when all hearts shall be opened and everything which is in the soul of man made known. Then it shall be one thousand fold clearer than the light of midday that there is but one Law, and that this Law is eternal and unchanging. In that time of glory all men and all women shall be brothers and sisters, and all hearts and minds joined, for there will be no false or separate understandings of the Law....At the end of time and beyond time, the love of God in all, by all, for all will still all argument and right all error. Then all men and women will be brothers and sisters, for they will have found their way home." (p.58, p.69)